I tell people all the time at work, "If you don't hear from us, it's good. No news is good news." In my case...not so much.
Casey went with me to my appointment, thank goodness. He didn't have to work until 10, and he told his boss that he was going to be late for work that day. I'm glad he was able to be there with me, because I turned out to be a complete nutcase.
Dr. E came in and went over the blood work with me. EVERYTHING was normal. I don't have an under active thyroid. I'm not producing prolactin. And my progesterone levels are perfectly normal, and consistent with ovulation. I should be happy...but I am so so so not happy. This means that there is nothing physically wrong with me, and I should be pregnant by now. After she gave me the results, I just burst into tears. Casey gave me this weird look, and asked me why I was crying! This is good news! "I just wanted an answer. If there was something wrong, we could fix it. But these results don't give any answers, only more questions."
She did an ultrasound, because she didn't do one last time. Everything looked normal and healthy, except that it looked like there were tiny little cysts on my ovaries. Nothing big, and nothing that would cause pain...and normal. She explained the ovulation process, and how we have lots of little cysts anyway, and when the cyst gets mature, it breaks and an egg is released. She said that all of the cysts looked immature. She made the comment, "polycystic ovaries" just meaning lots of cysts...
She gave Casey some lab sheets so HE gets to go get tested now. He's not really looking forward to it...but I told him to rest easy, that HIS tests are much more fun than mine. He's still not happy about it.
So where do we go from here? She put me on glucophage...which is a diabetes medicine. I'm not diabetic. But she said that given my family history, my blood sugar could be a little weird - and blood sugar also can affect fertility. The bonus is that the medicine has a side effect of weight loss. (BUT, that's because it causes gastrointestinal upset...which is nothing new for me anyway.)
After a few months of glucophage, if I'm still not pregnant...out comes the Clomid. I'm not excited about it. She explained the side effects - the mood swings, the craziness. Casey is so not looking forward to it. Neither am I. I'm crazy enough as it is.
The lab sheet that Casey has actually has the word "Infertility" in large bold letters at the top. I saw that, and I think my heart stopped. It's one thing to think about it, to talk about it, to discuss it with your doctor. It's another thing entirely to see it as your diagnosis in big bold letters.
Now, if you don't mind...I'm going back to bed. Maybe throw up, then go to bed. Either way...I'm not having a super duper day and I don't feel blogging anymore.
8 years ago
4 comments:
Oh, Lyndsey, what a morning. You can do this. But dang it, I'm sorry you have to even deal with it. Hugs to you, little sis.
we love you too! (sorry about the typo above :)
you can do this!
Hey Lyndsey, this is Michelle (Kira's sister-in-law) I have endometreosis and PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) This causes infertility, weight gain, excess facial hair, and sounds a lot like what you may be going through. Getting pregnant is very hard and discouraging. It took 9 years for our first and we are approaching year 4 in trying for our second. PCOS can not be cured but the glucophage should help and although there are side effects the clomid helps your ovaries to produce mature eggs instead of cysts. I will be starting on it soon myself. I hope that things work out well. I know how hard it is for you and I feel for you. You are in my prayers.
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