Last Friday, I started getting a very sneaky suspicion that the Clomid worked. I got home from work, and was so exhausted that I fell asleep on the couch. (I don't sleep on the couch. Period. I have issues stemming from my childhood about people sleeping on my couch...I do not let ANYONE sleep on the couch.)
I was super tired all weekend. Like, I could NOT get myself moving to get anything done. My chest was really tender (like, I had to wear a bra to bed. It was ridiculous. ) and I had this low-lying, ever present nausea. Not so sick to my stomach that I threw up all the time...but sick enough that I really thought twice before I ate anything. I thought it was kind of funny, since it was WAY too early in ANY pregnancy to have any symptoms like that....my period wasn't even due yet...not for another 6 days!
On Monday morning, I took a test on a whim. Yes, I knew it was too early, but that two week wait really really long anyway. Lo and behold....two lines.
SERIOUSLY?!
I woke Casey up to make sure I wasn't hallucinating. And then I called the doctor to get confirmation. The nurse sent me immediately for bloodwork on Monday and Wednesday...and my hcg levels looked really good...doubling like they should. I am using Prolief balancing cream two daily, as well as taking Prometrium twice daily. Apparently, you can never have too much progesterone....and I'm pumping my body full of it.
It's all very surreal...but I would be totally lying to you if I told you that I was excited.
Am I happy? Of course. Casey and I are both very happy that I was able to get pregnant so quickly using Clomid. However...I have learned the hard way that being pregnant doesn't necessarily mean you're going to have a baby. Casey and I aren't so naive to think that we can't or won't have ANY problems with this pregnancy...and I refuse to get excited until a little farther along...maybe after an ultrasound or two. Maybe not until I get out of the first trimester unscathed.
Why am I telling you all so soon? Frankly, I have to tell someone. My blog-readers are made up of my family and friends who are practically my family. (you know....the people that I would tell anyway.) I'm almost 100% sure than no one from work reads this, because I haven't told everyone that I work with. On one hand, it was really nice to have the support of everyone who knew after my miscarriage. On the other hand...it really really sucked to have to say "Just kidding! Not pregnant anymore!" to so many people. I'll tell people as I'm getting more comfortable...when I feel less like I could lose the pregnancy at any moment.
8 years ago
8 comments:
well congrats! But I totally understand the not really feeling excited yet. It is surreal and you don't really believe that it will continue on...you're waiting for the other shoe to drop. For me I wasn't 100% comfortable with it until after I was like 4 months no matter how many ultrasounds I had and even after the doctors said that it was only a 1% chance of miscarriage. So I can totally understand. Being happy and hopeful are great and there's plenty of time for excitement later on!! ;o)
We're all SO, SO, SO happy for you both!!!
So so super thrilled for you guys!!
Oh please, oh please, oh please, oh please! I'm praying, sug! xoxo
i've been on cloud nine for you since you told me the other day. so happy for you. and, like i told you then, you'll continue to star in my prayers. love you!
Yay!! I'm doing the happy dance! Will be praying for you.
I don't have to tell you how thrilled I am for you. But I will. I just couldn't be any happier.
:)
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