Ka-BOOM

I haven't blogged in awhile, and there has been a good reason. Personally, I don't think it's a good idea for someone that's been trying to get pregnant for as long as I have to complain about every little pregnancy symptom that they have. I have been pretty fortunate to not have too much of a problem with symptoms....but when I do have them, I can keep my head up and be grateful for them. Pregnancy symptoms mean that things are going well, and that I don't have to worry too much about the baby (right now, anyway.)

The nausea hasn't been too bad....and I learned that out of all the things that I threw up, fruit was the least offensive coming back up. I can look on the bright side of vomiting, you know. ;)

The heartburn is manageable. I can take Tums when it gets too bad, and I figured out out to make it so I get heartburn less. (eat smaller meals, in my case...because the bigger the meal, the bigger the heartburn.)

I laugh a little when I'm reaching for my snacks. Fortunately, I haven't gained much weight, though I'm eating ALL THE TIME. I can't eat large quantities....so I'm kind of just stretching out my meals over the course of the whole day. I eat a lot of fruit and veggies (A: because they're healthy and I feel less guilty about eating a ton if I'm eating a ton of healthy stuff, and B: because those don't taste that bad coming back up.)

I'm still peeing all the time and even though it's kind of nuisance, Casey thinks it's hilarious. The girls at work are getting used to me running to the bathroom 100 times a day...because I'm either in there peeing or throwing up. They know to answer the phone, because I might not have time to tell anyone where I'm going.... I've been invited to some bonfires and fun things this week...because I haven't gone because I don't want to pee in a field 30 times during the evening.

Even though my sciatic nerve pain is killer...I can stretch it out most of the time to relieve the pressure on the nerve. It actually hasn't been that bad this week...so I'm guessing that I was able to heal and help the injury that Dr. M suspected I had.

BUT....

I canNOT deal with this lack of sleep. I haven't slept for more than an hour or two at a time in almost a solid month. I haven't slept more than 4 hours a night in 3 weeks. I am feeling so run down that people at work tell me I look like I might burst into tears any minute (and to tell you the truth, I feel that way, too.) I even tried taking benadryl last night, in hopes that I could get maybe 6 solid hours of sleep...but I got less sleep last night than I've gotten in the past week combined. I even put away my nightly water bottle (unheard of...I've been sleeping with a liter of water next to my bed for at least the past 7 years) in hopes that if I didn't drink anything during the night, then I wouldn't have to get up to pee. Of course, I still had to get up 10 times in the night to pee. I got maybe 2 hours of sleep...the rest of the night was spent trying to get back to sleep.

Because I'm not sleeping, it's getting really hard to keep my head up about all the other little symptoms, and I spent a lot of my weekend either crying in Casey's lap and trying to take naps (to no avail). Thank goodness my follow-up with Dr. M is this Thursday...maybe he has some ideas.

And the icing on the cake? Casey is sick. Really, really sick. Like, I left work 4 hours early because he called and said he thought he threw up blood. If his fever gets any higher, I'm dragging him to the doctor. So...my husband is terribly sick, and I'm sleep deprived and trying to take care of him.

Things aren't very happy in the Sebold house today.